For past few days I have not been able to update my blog neither been able to have a sound sleep. Time is not the problem but a lot of things are going on in my mind. I can’t write because my mind is not at rest. I don’t believe we should follow wherever life takes us but make our own path. I don’t believe in destiny anymore. I don’t think if we are unable to achieve something it’s not in our destiny but we didn’t give it our best. I truly believe that if we want something as the most important thing in our life we are sure to achieve it. But when? Not someday. Please don’t answer me that. I don’t have all my life to run after something and get it when my hairs are gray. I want to be successful in my own definition.
Last few weeks of my life have been about soul searching and I’m still confused. A long time back, when I was in school, my teacher told me the best way to know what you want is to start thinking about things you don’t want. And that was the way I came at the conclusion that I wanted to be a software engineer. I still remember that I was in Class 8th when I had decided that software was what I wanted to do. I was good at coding and decided that I wanted to be a coder. Today I work in an MNC as a developer but when I look at myself I don’t think this was what I had expected. I have done engineering like million others and I’m doing a job as most of the other engineers. Then what’s the difference between me and them? I don’t like to be a part of the crowd. There should be a differentiating factor. Something which makes you stands above the crowd.
As I child I was greatly inspired by Bill Gates. I didn’t know much about him then but a fact that he was into software. I thought software is the road to success and he is the kind of person I want to be someday. I’m 22 now, an age when people start talking about your marriage and parents start worrying if her daughter can cook well. But these are not the things I want for myself. My roommate is probably the kind of daughter my parents or anyone’s parents expect. But I can’t be like her. May be I don’t understand these things or underestimate their importance in life. But my goal in life is not to get married and cook for some guy and our children. These things are secondary for me, at least not now. The thought of such future scares every tiny bit in me. I want to be successful. I’m desperate for success. Nothing in life matters to me more than that.
Definition of success is yet to be written for me. I think Ashoka or Chanakya were successful because we still read about them and their life. Every aspect of their life inspires us in some way or the other. They are the people with revolutionary ideas. Of course they were long time back and most of us don’t care about them now. So I took a look at people whom we consider to be successful today. I hope you have read the book “Men of Steel”, if not get a copy of it. I came across this book when I was in the fourth year of engineering. My best friend was reading it and just to irritate him and not let him read I took the book from him. Later I read it myself. It took me around a year to actually get inspired by the book. It’s true I never gave it a lot of thought but now I think I understand success in a better way and I want it like I had never wanted anything before.
Let us talk about people whom we consider to be successful, Steve Wozniak. He started investing when he was 14 and in an article about him as I read he said that he thinks that he was late. Shocked? I know I was. The man started investing at an age of 14 and still thinks he was late! So according to me I have lost a lot of time in my life. Life is short but we can live it large. I want to be big and that big only I can define. None has any right over that. It’s my life and only once I’m gonna live it. So better I live it big. I will do everything possible to live the life I want for myself. I hope to be successful without giving myself another option. I want to grow in a way that world remembers me as a revolutionary. I sincerely hope all this to happen.
I would like to end this article with a quote
“Hope is a good thing, may be the best of things and no good thing ever dies.”
